itsjustagamerp | Seeking Advice, part 2 [closed]

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Seeking Advice, part 2 [closed]

Characters: Terra & Rarity
Content: Terra thinks about what Maes told him and finds himself brooding again
Location: Wandering the SoL
Time of day: Afternoon
Warnings: None

He walked and continued to think about what Maes had told him. He knew he needed to consider his own feelings and thoughts on the matter, but it was hard to do so when his mind continued to remind him that in the end he'd have to hurt one of them (if even briefly). Deep down, Terra probably already knew who he was going to pick. The answer was obvious to anyone except for perhaps the people involved. Unfortunately, Terra was stuck so deeply within the problem that he couldn't see it, even after his talk with Maes.

Anyone passing him in the hallway could probably tell he was troubled, once again. How was he supposed to make up his mind between a girl he had just met and a girl who he couldn't decide on how to label. What WERE his feelings for Aqua and why did he have to feel so upset over a girl whom he had only just met?

Maybe he should have talked to Maes a little longer.

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Terra hadn't thought about the location of the conversation but Rarity had a point. The last thing he needed right now was to run into Minako or Aqua and make this ten times more awkward. He followed her direction and went into the room she had indicated, glad to see that it was very much absent of anyone.

Once they were in the room, the door safely shut, he sighed and leaned back against one of the walls, arms crossed and looking at Rarity for advice. He was glad she was willing to help and probably shouldn't have been surprised by what she said next. "I...I don't know Minako well so I can't say that I have feelings one way or another for her. I know she's pretty and is really friendly. I like her but...but I'm not sure it's in the way that would result in dating her." He turned a little red in the face and looked up at the ceiling. Normally he'd look at the ground but unfortunately for him Rarity was closer to the ground and so avoiding eye contact with her wouldn't work that way. "It just...doesn't seem fair to turn her down like that though, does it? I mean, I want to stay friends with her and I don't want to hurt her."

He had decided to focus on Minako for the moment. He wasn't sure he could put what he felt for Aqua in to words.

Rarity waited, listening to Terra figure out what to say. It was obvious he had no idea how this sort of thing worked - lucky he had her to set him straight on a few matters. First things first, however. "I don't think the ceiling can help you, dear," she stated. It was rather rude not to look at somepony when you were talking to them, but chastisement over his lack of manners was likely the last thing Terra needed right now.

"Any lady should know that telling your feelings to someone does not guarantee they'll share those same feelings for you," she continued. "Provided you aren't terribly rude about telling her, Minako should understand that you are not slighting her and that your lack of romantic feelings for her is not any of her fault. It's simply how these sort of things go sometimes. If you're already friendly with her, then she'll probably want to stay friends. Of course, it might be a little awkward at first, but I'm sure you'll work through that just fine." Because Terra was not in any way, shape, or form awkward.

Well, maybe it would simply take him longer to work through it.

"What about the second girl?" Rarity continued on, shaking off that thought. "How do you feel about her?"

Terra blinked and straightened up. Despite the fact that Rarity was far smaller than him he obeyed her and looked at her instead of at the ceiling. He did know better than to avoid eye contact, but it was difficult seeing as he felt so torn up about this.

He shuffled awkwardly as he took in what she was saying. Much like his conversation with Maes Hughes, he could see the validity of Rarity's advice and it made sense. The hard part would be how to put it GENTLY of course, but that was something he would have to consider later.

Unfortunately, they were now at the more difficult part of the conversation. Terra's feelings for Aqua. Silence hung in the air as he closed his eyes and thought about her, trying to figure out a way to put what he felt about her into words. "Well she's...she's Aqua. She's one of the first people who ever actually cared about me...she's smart and strong." He shook his head, there was so much to say, "I admire her, but I've also done some things that...well, it's probably not good for a rel-this sort of thing. I've known her since we were kids so I've...I've never really thought about what she means to me. Sure, we're friends, we've always cared about each other and looked out for each other. How do I know I love her though? That's such a big thing." Throughout the speech he found his hands moving and gesturing in a variety of ways, usually out of agitation because he wasn't sure this was helping Rarity figure out what he should do at all and partly because it didn't seem like the RIGHT words. Finally he just slumped, his hands falling to his side again, "But I've never felt this way about anyone and...and it's different from how I see Ven or Minako or any friend I've had."

This part was a bit tougher, partially because Terra simply didn't seem to know what to say. The way he was saying it, however, made things crystal clear by the end, especially coupled with what he did say at the end. "Ah," she commented simply, because by this point it had become very obvious, "so you do have feelings for her, then."

Terra ran a hand through his hair, shifting uncomfortably. Rarity really wasn't the type to beat around the bush, was she? Perhaps that was what Terra really needed but he was still having trouble admitting that. "Well, yeah, I mean...yes I guess I've always felt something for her but is...is that what this is? I mean I never used to feel so nervous talking to her but now I feel like I'm losing her if I don't give her an answer soon. I-I couldn't bear the thought of losing her. Not over something like this." He groaned and put a hand to his head, rubbing his brow, "I'm such an idiot. This was so much better when I didn't have to put words to it."

He felt like he'd been much happier when he HADN'T had to label his feelings for Aqua. He had been content with the warm feeling he got in his chest when he looked at her or was with her...this was just unbareable in a way...but perhaps it would lead to something better. He certainly hoped it would.

Terra still didn't seem the most confident about any of this, and Rarity couldn't blame him - this sort of thing was difficult on one's first go-around. "Well, yes," she commented thoughtfully, putting a hoof to her chin, "it is rather rude to keep a lady waiting, but I do think you have your answer already. You said you wanted to stay friends with Minako and that you didn't want to hurt her feelings, but with Aqua, you couldn't bear the thought of losing her. That's your answer right there, now, isn't it."

And then he started talking about being an idiot. Oh, no. Not on Rarity's watch.

"Now you listen here!" She marched over to him and reared up, putting one forehoof on the wall next to him for balance and poking him pointedly in the stomach with the other. "You are not an idiot. You are in love with a very lovely young lady, and you are going to march right over to where she is and tell her exactly how you feel. Is that clear?" She punctuated the question with another poke.

Terra realized she was right, he had his answer all along and deep down he'd KNOWN that, but hadn't wanted to acknowledge it. Really it all boiled down to stalling for time and not wanting to confront what was CLEARLY going to change everything he knew about his relationship with Aqua. Terra just...a lot of things had changed for him in the past and he liked things the way they were now. Well, okay, he liked the way things had been BEFORE the Mark of Mastery exam but he supposed that was a moot point. You couldn't fight change and he couldn't go back in time and change what had occurred.

He practically jumped when Rarity's tone changed and she became MUCH more vocal and started jabbing him with a forceful hoof. The hoof didn't hurt so much as it emphasized her point. He frowned slightly, "You mean...right now? I don't...I don't even know where she is!" Not that finding her would be the problem, he just wasn't sure he was ready to face Aqua even though he'd been putting it off for FAAAR too long now.

"Yes, right now!" Honestly, boys could be so dense about this sort of thing. "You've known her for a very long time, have you not? Then you should know the sort of places she likes to go! It's just the same as my knowing to find Fluttershy wherever there are animals or Pinkie Pie wherever there's a party or cupcakes! You know where to find her!" Rarity took a step back, turned a quarter-turn to the right, took aim, and rammed her hindquarters against Terra's hips, effectively hip-checking him in the direction of the door. "Now go!"

The hip-check sent him stumbling towards the door, but he caught himself just before reaching it. He rested his hand on the door, taking a deep breath. He had his answer, he knew what he had to say, and he knew where Aqua probably was at this time of day.

He gave one last look over his shoulder at Rarity before sighing again and exiting before she decided to do something more drastic than a hip-check. He wouldn't put it past Rarity to drag him all the way to Aqua herself, smaller size or not.

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